Wouldn't it be nice if there were no bumps in the road and I could just complete this in the time I am supposed to??? Right. Well shit happens. This week has been rough...personally, emotionally and educationally. But today was a GREAT day. I got to do something that I love and found out that I wasn't half bad at it. I even learned a few new things today.
Not only that, but I got to spend time with my nursing gals and dump a lot of my emotional load that I've been holding on to. It's really tough working in a place where a person could potentially die every day, and maybe more than one. I was part of another code blue on Friday and boy what a rush but what a terrible and sad ending. It's rough. But on Wednesday, I saw one of the patients that coded last week and made it, leave our unit in a wheel chair (which is VERY rare, they are usually transferred by bed to another floor). We rarely ever discharge patients to home because they are just too sick. But seeing that guy wheel himself out was the stuff that makes up why I love my job.
Hanging with my girls was exactly what I needed because we are all going through the same thing. While at work we don't ever have time to really talk about what just happened. One of my girls works on the same unit as I do and it's so great to be able to talk to someone who knows EXACTLY what I'm going through...and it's also good to hear the other girls' stories about what they've seen and have had to deal with.
It's so hard to talk to Alan about any of it because he gets grossed out pretty easily (and I see a lot of gross shit!). The other day (ok this is a little personal but whatever) we were in the shower and I didn't have my glasses or contacts in and I saw this black thing by his foot and I started FREAKING out thinking it was a spider, so he gets down and FLICKS it and it lands on my foot!!! I literally screamed and shook my foot in horror while COMPLETELY freaking out and it finally went down the drain. Turns out, it was a fuzzy from our black bathroom rug. =/ Alan just started cracking up because he can't believe that after all the gross stuff I see and do without a care in the world, I freak out about bugs...he thinks it's hysterical.
Work has literally been exhausting me. I'm sure this is just an adjustment period though and hopefully this week I can pick back up on Week 4 and kill that damn thing!! It's like a monkey on my back. I just want to make it to Week 5 so bad!!
Showing posts with label Week 4. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Week 4. Show all posts
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Sunday, August 16, 2009
W4D3..ahem...WEEK 4 FAIL!!
haha...yeah...I failed again tonight. It wasn't about my breathing but I was just plain tired and got a nasty shin splint (?) in my left shin while running. It's fine now, but wow it was nagging during the third interval so I stopped...afraid I might really hurt myself. I went for the last interval and just knew it was the end for me. So I stopped at 1.75 miles in about 23 minutes. Bummer but that really sucked and I didn't want to kill myself over it. At least I got in almost two miles. I definitely HAVE to repeat week 4 this week. I'm getting nervous because some of the other girls seem way ahead of the game than I am. I feel really slow. I hope it's just AF that is making me so drained this week. I also ate a late lunch and didn't eat before I ran, thinking it would make me feel better, but I really felt drained of energy. I definitely felt different this week so hopefully next week I can step it up and knock week 4 out of the park!!
Another downer tonight was I was talking to my dad saying how Alan and I were about to go to the gym and he started asking about it. I told him how I have been running 3x a week for the past month....Of course he's like, "so have you lost any weight?" (WTF?!?! DAD!!!!) and then he started talking about how I wouldn't want to run with ALL THAT WEIGHT ON ME....omg I wanted to cry. Who does that? And then he's like, have you ever tried that Jenny Carpenter, eh Carmen, errr Caoisdfjaioweofer...I wanted to die. Thanks dad. And yes, I'm still at 178. I haven't budged a pound...just floated around it. I remember the days when my heaviest was 172 and I only was there for like a few weeks before I started WW. I've always lived in the 160s and even THEN I thought I was a cow. I need to pull myself out of this hole.
Another downer tonight was I was talking to my dad saying how Alan and I were about to go to the gym and he started asking about it. I told him how I have been running 3x a week for the past month....Of course he's like, "so have you lost any weight?" (WTF?!?! DAD!!!!) and then he started talking about how I wouldn't want to run with ALL THAT WEIGHT ON ME....omg I wanted to cry. Who does that? And then he's like, have you ever tried that Jenny Carpenter, eh Carmen, errr Caoisdfjaioweofer...I wanted to die. Thanks dad. And yes, I'm still at 178. I haven't budged a pound...just floated around it. I remember the days when my heaviest was 172 and I only was there for like a few weeks before I started WW. I've always lived in the 160s and even THEN I thought I was a cow. I need to pull myself out of this hole.
Friday, August 14, 2009
W4 D2...what a doozie!!
Ok, I always do this. I think I'm on the up and up when clearly I'm not. Mother nature brought me her gift this morning and we had a heavy dinner (thanks Bertolli!!). We rested for an hour and then hit the gym (yes, on a Friday night!!). I'm having to like, drag Alan to the gym with me. He's always the one to be like "I don't feel good" but then always caves in at the last minute when I threaten to go without him...haha.
So we get to the gym and I'm feelin pretty good...and of course there is someone on one of the treadmills but not the glorious window one!! So I take that one and the stupid competitiveness gets the best of me. I tried to match the pace of the guy next to me. I think he was going 5.5 (I tried to peek but the glare on the monitor makes it hard). So I thought, for sure, I could go at 5.0 at least the first two intervals. And you know what??? I DID!!!! but it came with its consequences unfortunately. =/
So I did a 3 minute and then a 5 minute interval at 5.0 and when the next 3 minute interval came I went back to my comfort zone at 4.8 because I was reallllly feeling it. Mostly in my legs and a cramp in my right foot (how annoying!!) and then I started to get that "full" feeling from eating the heavy meal...NOT a good feeling when you're bouncing up and down gasping for air...lol. So then comes that last damn 5 minute interval and I started at 4.8 and HAD to cut it back to 4.6...I honestly wasn't going to make it...and I didn't. lol. I had to drop back to walking about halfway through the last 5 minute interval. FAIL!!!!
Well, not really...it just proves that I'm in the right place and I KNOW what my right pace is. I feel like it's ok to test the waters and push yourself..but not to the point where you can't complete the intervals. The last day this week (Sunday) I will definitely do 4.8 all across the board. If I can't complete it like that (which I SHOULD be able to), I'll have to repeat this week. Week 5 has you doing three different workouts (a different workout for each day) so I have to be prepared for that. I haven't seen what I'm up against but I'll do a "prepare" post probably Sunday night. I don't want to look now and psych myself out too much if I go ahead and plan to start week 5 on Tuesday. My schedule next week regardless, is going to be T/TH/Sat according to my work schedule. It's amazing what a measly 0.2 mph can do to you!!! ugh!!! I will get there though! Right now completing the workouts is more important than competing with myself (or other runners who might be next to you!) lol.
BTW, I did 2.14 miles in about 31 minutes...It's weird because the podcast is for a 29 minute workout but he talks for like at least two minutes in the beginning, so there is an extra 2 minutes of me just walking. And AGAIN, I forgot to take pictures of the new gym AND my monitor. Sunday, I'm going to make a point of it!!!
So we get to the gym and I'm feelin pretty good...and of course there is someone on one of the treadmills but not the glorious window one!! So I take that one and the stupid competitiveness gets the best of me. I tried to match the pace of the guy next to me. I think he was going 5.5 (I tried to peek but the glare on the monitor makes it hard). So I thought, for sure, I could go at 5.0 at least the first two intervals. And you know what??? I DID!!!! but it came with its consequences unfortunately. =/
So I did a 3 minute and then a 5 minute interval at 5.0 and when the next 3 minute interval came I went back to my comfort zone at 4.8 because I was reallllly feeling it. Mostly in my legs and a cramp in my right foot (how annoying!!) and then I started to get that "full" feeling from eating the heavy meal...NOT a good feeling when you're bouncing up and down gasping for air...lol. So then comes that last damn 5 minute interval and I started at 4.8 and HAD to cut it back to 4.6...I honestly wasn't going to make it...and I didn't. lol. I had to drop back to walking about halfway through the last 5 minute interval. FAIL!!!!
Well, not really...it just proves that I'm in the right place and I KNOW what my right pace is. I feel like it's ok to test the waters and push yourself..but not to the point where you can't complete the intervals. The last day this week (Sunday) I will definitely do 4.8 all across the board. If I can't complete it like that (which I SHOULD be able to), I'll have to repeat this week. Week 5 has you doing three different workouts (a different workout for each day) so I have to be prepared for that. I haven't seen what I'm up against but I'll do a "prepare" post probably Sunday night. I don't want to look now and psych myself out too much if I go ahead and plan to start week 5 on Tuesday. My schedule next week regardless, is going to be T/TH/Sat according to my work schedule. It's amazing what a measly 0.2 mph can do to you!!! ugh!!! I will get there though! Right now completing the workouts is more important than competing with myself (or other runners who might be next to you!) lol.
BTW, I did 2.14 miles in about 31 minutes...It's weird because the podcast is for a 29 minute workout but he talks for like at least two minutes in the beginning, so there is an extra 2 minutes of me just walking. And AGAIN, I forgot to take pictures of the new gym AND my monitor. Sunday, I'm going to make a point of it!!!
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Week 4 Day 1
Completed as promised!! So a few changes on the fly...I ran at 4.8 for every interval except the last 5 minute one I ran at 4.6. This workout was tough but cutting back to 4.6 REALLY helped me be able to complete it full out. I realized that while running, I don't really "think"...which is perfect when I have a lot of things on my mind. It gives me time to clear my head and just not think about anything...without even trying. LOVE IT!!!
Lots has happened, especially at work. Yesterday I watched a man die with no family at his bedside and another woman died on the way up from the ED to claim one of my empty beds I was assigned...her family didn't even make it to the airport before she coded for the final time. Work has been tough not only physically, but emotionally as well. I don't show it while I'm there...I knew this came with the job but when I get home all of it weighs on my mind. I'm sure I'll get used to it, working in a cardiac ICU, my days and weeks will roughly be just like this...it just sucked that it happened relatively at the same time on the same shift and was almost one of my patients.
Today's workout felt good. I swear the hardest part muscle wise is that first warmup...I cut it back to 3.8 because there's no real reason I need to warm up at 4.0...3.8 was much more comfortable on my legs so I kept my walking intervals at that and cooled down at 3.6. No sense pushing myself when I'm trying to build up stamina. My settings are right in line with the bpm with the music...sometimes I feel like I'm going faster than the music. This workout also didn't give much time to recover as far as the walking intervals...after a 3 min run, 90 seconds later I'm running another 5 minute interval! Killer!!!
Oh the most annoying part about tonight was that there was some guy on the "window" treadmill and I had to start out on the squeaky one. After the first running interval, he was off the window treadmill so I switched....therefore ruining any chance of tracking my time and/or distance. But on the 2nd treadmill I did 1.5 miles in 20 minutes...so I'm not sure how that stacks up but I'm sure with the prolonged running times, it's getting better each week regardless. So I probably did 2.5 miles in 30 minutes but I can't recall the stats from the first treadmill...and that was the warmup and 1st 5 minute interval, I think?
Well, hopefully this one tired me out enough to give me a good nights' rest. I work another 12hr shift tomorrow from 7a-7p but have to be up at 5:30am just to get there on time.
BTW, my diet still sucks. I'm at 179 after 3 freakin' weeks of this crap. If it doesn't budge after this week, I'm going to have to do some serious meal planning. Good thing about where I work they post nutritional information and the menu in advance...this way if I do have to eat in the cafeteria, at least I'll know what I'm really eating. =/
Lots has happened, especially at work. Yesterday I watched a man die with no family at his bedside and another woman died on the way up from the ED to claim one of my empty beds I was assigned...her family didn't even make it to the airport before she coded for the final time. Work has been tough not only physically, but emotionally as well. I don't show it while I'm there...I knew this came with the job but when I get home all of it weighs on my mind. I'm sure I'll get used to it, working in a cardiac ICU, my days and weeks will roughly be just like this...it just sucked that it happened relatively at the same time on the same shift and was almost one of my patients.
Today's workout felt good. I swear the hardest part muscle wise is that first warmup...I cut it back to 3.8 because there's no real reason I need to warm up at 4.0...3.8 was much more comfortable on my legs so I kept my walking intervals at that and cooled down at 3.6. No sense pushing myself when I'm trying to build up stamina. My settings are right in line with the bpm with the music...sometimes I feel like I'm going faster than the music. This workout also didn't give much time to recover as far as the walking intervals...after a 3 min run, 90 seconds later I'm running another 5 minute interval! Killer!!!
Oh the most annoying part about tonight was that there was some guy on the "window" treadmill and I had to start out on the squeaky one. After the first running interval, he was off the window treadmill so I switched....therefore ruining any chance of tracking my time and/or distance. But on the 2nd treadmill I did 1.5 miles in 20 minutes...so I'm not sure how that stacks up but I'm sure with the prolonged running times, it's getting better each week regardless. So I probably did 2.5 miles in 30 minutes but I can't recall the stats from the first treadmill...and that was the warmup and 1st 5 minute interval, I think?
Well, hopefully this one tired me out enough to give me a good nights' rest. I work another 12hr shift tomorrow from 7a-7p but have to be up at 5:30am just to get there on time.
BTW, my diet still sucks. I'm at 179 after 3 freakin' weeks of this crap. If it doesn't budge after this week, I'm going to have to do some serious meal planning. Good thing about where I work they post nutritional information and the menu in advance...this way if I do have to eat in the cafeteria, at least I'll know what I'm really eating. =/
Sunday, August 9, 2009
Week 4 preparation
29 minutes from 129 to 140 BPM
BPM CHART
5-minute warmup @ 129 BPM
3 minutes @ 140 BPM
90 seconds @ 130 BPM
5 minutes @ 140 BPM
2 minutes 30 seconds @ 130 BPM
3 minutes @ 140 BPM
90 seconds @ 130 BPM
5 minutes @ 140 BPM
Two minute cooldown @ 130 BPM
PLAYLIST:
01. Stan Kolev - Obsession (Original Mix)
02. Aldrin & Akien - Maybe Tomorrow (Original Mix)
03. Peter McCowan - Energiss
04. Yotopia - New Born (Original Mix)
05. Greenspace - Strength in Love (original Mix)
06. Starkillers - Diskoteka (Kobbe & Austin Leeds Mix)
So I haven't double checked to make sure the intervals are correct, but hopefully they are. UM 5 MINUTES?!?!? Crap...so much for my plan to run at 5.0 in the MIDDLE of the workout. I think at least for day 1 this week, I will stay in my comfort zone and run at 4.8. Looks like this week is going to be a real challenge but I know I can do it!! Probably not tomorrow after my 12 hour shift!! lol..but I have 12's on M, T and TH. So looks like W, F and Sun might be my days. I have some FitTv shows ready to be recorded on our DVR so I'll make sure to be doing something on my off days.
BPM CHART
5-minute warmup @ 129 BPM
3 minutes @ 140 BPM
90 seconds @ 130 BPM
5 minutes @ 140 BPM
2 minutes 30 seconds @ 130 BPM
3 minutes @ 140 BPM
90 seconds @ 130 BPM
5 minutes @ 140 BPM
Two minute cooldown @ 130 BPM
PLAYLIST:
01. Stan Kolev - Obsession (Original Mix)
02. Aldrin & Akien - Maybe Tomorrow (Original Mix)
03. Peter McCowan - Energiss
04. Yotopia - New Born (Original Mix)
05. Greenspace - Strength in Love (original Mix)
06. Starkillers - Diskoteka (Kobbe & Austin Leeds Mix)
So I haven't double checked to make sure the intervals are correct, but hopefully they are. UM 5 MINUTES?!?!? Crap...so much for my plan to run at 5.0 in the MIDDLE of the workout. I think at least for day 1 this week, I will stay in my comfort zone and run at 4.8. Looks like this week is going to be a real challenge but I know I can do it!! Probably not tomorrow after my 12 hour shift!! lol..but I have 12's on M, T and TH. So looks like W, F and Sun might be my days. I have some FitTv shows ready to be recorded on our DVR so I'll make sure to be doing something on my off days.
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